I just feel very alone. I really can't go no place because my husband and I are having to bring our dog everywhere we go. I am always stuck in the car with him so my husband can go in because my anxiety makes it hard for me to go inside alone. Reason the dog is always with us is not worth writing about. So my interactions include my dog, my Mom, my husband and my father in law who we have to help quite a bit these days. As I said I am not even I social media much just to check here and there maybe once a week to every 2 weeks. I just feel I was depressing everyone. The whole reason I am getting so raw is so if anyone else is dealing with this they can know they aren't alone. I however am still feeling very alone and unrelatable which is fine I am use to feeling like the odd one out. I let my mental health get so bad and it really only on me and the fact that treating it is not really possible for me at the moment. I just wish my life was different. I know people will say then change it but it's not that easy is it? If it were wouldn't we all change it so it could be what we need.
I just want those who do read this blog to know that life is full of ups and downs and its okay to struggle but we can't stay in those struggles or allow them to define us. If anyone is ever struggling or needs a ear to listen. Even if I don't know you I will gladly listen. No one should suffer in silence or feel bad or wrong because life dealt you a difficult or different hand. All problems have a solution and sometimes we can't see it for ourselves so an outside perspective can be helpful. I know life is sometimes more bullshit then most of us want to deal with but the good makes up for the bad and some of us must make our own good so we don't drown in the bad. For me when bad times are around it clouds any memory of good times and makes it a struggle to want to keep going but we must because you are worth fighting for to see what life may have in store for you it may just surprise you. Everyday moments can be perceived as positive and good through the ones eyes. Well through another's it can be perceived in a negative way. Life is about perspective. If you know you're struggling ask others for their perception on maybe a event that keeps swirling around or even how someone is treating you. You may being seeing the world more harshly then you realize. I do this and maybe I am alone in it.
Anyway if you made it this far. Thank you for reading especially since I know there is better blogs out there. Hopefully you readers are well and hopefully I can get out of this rut and write more positive stuff for you to read. Life is just very overwhelming for me at the moment. Thank you again! Enjoy you're Friday and weekend!