Hello everyone! Sorry I was gone for so long but the holidays are really hard for me and I guess I felt I need a break from everything! I am back now and I am still not in therapy and I honestly don't know if I will go back! I should be going to court this year for my social security so let's cross our fingers I get it! On a positive note my husband and I plan on trying for a baby this year! yay! I am excited but scared! I really hope we can get pregnant we plan to get a ovulation monitor that will even work with my pcos so that's so exciting to me! I been having a really hard time with life! Mainly because a lot has happened in my life and it's just so much! Today might be particularly hard because my brother who I don't speak to because of trauma he caused me is coming by my house to help my mom out along with his friend to look at the house! So everyone knows yes my mom knows what he has done and all that but he is her son and she loves him and I love him to he is my brother but I don't like how he has treated me or what he has done! I just hope I can get thru today without a serious break down! I don't know if anyone suffers from self harm! I do and it's like a addiction for me I have stopped before but always come back to it! One thing I can say tho is I have an amazing best friend/sister can't recall if I have mentioned her or not but she is amazing and always there for me when I need! I am so thankful for her every single day of my life because she helps me thru my hard times and is there thru my happy times! I just feel so connected to her like I don't have to explain why I am the way I am or anything else because she understands its an amazing feeling! I also am talking to just about all my siblings except that brother who is coming by today! I also have found that pot edibles help me with my anxiety and sleep! Its so nice to sleep so sound and not have to worry about waking up from a nightmare or anything! I want 2015 to be a good year for me and all of you! My year hasn't started out great but hopefully it will get better as it goes on! I am really hoping it does! Thanks to those who have stuck with me! Remember you can always comment and what not! Thanks for reading this! ☺
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