Sorry everyone its been so long since I have posted anything. Life has been crazy but then again when isn't it. I recently stopped my medication and I will explain why in a minute but before then. A lot has happened. My mom is doing better after a total of 3 surgeries and a infection last year. One of the main reasons I wasn't getting on here to write. So much had been going on with her that I just didn't have the time and didn't really know what to come and write on here. So over the last few months a lot has gone on in my life. My husband got a car from his mom's husband who passed a month or so ago. My husband and I have probably been doing the best we ever have in our relationship over the last few years. Like I said my mom is doing a lot better. Also my niece came back in our lives which is nice. I haven't talked to her much because I don't talk to her mom. After a lot of issues with her stuff. Anyway I am basically doing okay without my medication. Its been probably a month almost since I stopped them. So my reasons on that was because my husband and I have gotten serious about getting pregnant and I track my ovulation which we just started and the medication isn't good for a baby. Oh yea good news I actually ovulate so that is one good thing! Which is super exciting for us. One thing that makes me super sad is that most of my family won't be able to be in our children's lives more less know about them. So sadly when I get pregnant I won't be posting it on here. I just feel I can't trust my biological family and that makes me sad. Maybe later in life they can know but not till I feel like its a good idea. I am super excited though by the fact that it could happen for us. I also have decided if it doesn't happen for us that is okay too. I am just happy with my life the way it is. I still get depressed and discouraged but I know that I will have good days again. I been sticking with my counseling as well which has been a major help for me. I have learned a lot and I don't even talk about my past. I am in a much better spot then I have been in. I am really proud of myself with how far I have come in my thinking. I certainly have bad days where I feel like this life isn't worth it and it will be there for a while but I am able to come out of it and realize I am going to be okay and most of that is thanks to friends and family and coming and writing. Just doing things I enjoy is a major help to me. You can do it also. Believe me it won't be easy but its worth it and it takes time. I still struggle majorly and who knows I could be having my good time of my bipolar and that is whats making me thinking my life is so great. I know there has been some crappy moments but I notice when I take people out of my life that stress me out or make me feel less then. That I feel a lot better. Thanks to those who come back and keep reading and checking this out so sorry for being so absent my life gets crazy and so do I. I sometimes forget I have this blog to keep up on. I hope you all are doing wonderful in life and I wish you all a very happy and wonderful rest of your day. With love Bridget.
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