I wanna just talk about my husband this time this won't be super long but I wanna just take some time and thank him for being so amazing and supportive of me in every aspect of my life I just want him to know how much he is appreciated and let others know that its possible to find an awesome amazing person who will support you not matter what he is my rock and I seriously never thought I would meet someone like him and I feel extremely lucky to have him. Its nice to always have someone in your corner who is rooting for you no matter what and is willing to love you thru all of life's challenges. I get told so many different cute names a day by him and I love it he treats me wonderfully and he tells me how strong I am and how proud he is of me of even my smallest accomplishments. We only been together 3 years total but I can tell you from the first time I seen him and maybe even before then I knew he is was the one for me we been married 2 out of the 3 years and I won't lie that first year of marriage was hardest for us we ended up taking a break being in a open relationship and I seen other ppl which was a huge mistake but I don't regret it because it made me realize that he was the one for me and that I couldn't ever find this happiness else were. He truly has inspired me each day to get up and try to push myself. He bikes to work everyday from Vancouver, Wa to Portland, OR and he does it in rain or shine and walks in the snow if he can't bike he is just wonderful. So always remember you can find someone who will accept you completely for you and love you without judgement because I have and I didn't think I would. So if you have found that special someone you can comment below and telling me a lil about that person if you like and you if you haven't yet I am sure you will because we are all beautiful even if we have a lil damage that just adds to the beauty within. Reason for the red is cuz his fav color is red I am going to have a picture below of my husband and I. This is from when we celebrated his 21st birthday which was orginally on the 19 we celebrated then too. He doesn't drink so we didn't drink either day. Oh and my husband's name is Mickeal. :)
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So today I want to post about my life and what I am going thru today. My husband is home and its been about a week since he had any time off from work and I just am feeling quite annoyed not because of him but because on Wednesday I had seen a doctor and was diagnosed with PCOS which is Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome its really terrible to have it can make you have a ton of problems and a few I have from it is high blood pressure as well as being obese and I also have facial hair which is super embarrassing so I usually take care of it with plucking or shaving it but its because I have more male hormone then normal for a women and I might have diabetes and I have to eat completely different now and its really frustrating to me cuz I hardly eat bad as is and now I have to change my diet that will cost even more money and right now I can't work cuz my PTSD makes it hard for me to leave the house alone. So everything is just making me really upset today and making it hard for me to keep going. The more problems I get the more I wonder the reason for my life. I don't believe in God so please refrain from mentioning him. I just am having a bad day I guess cuz its hard to accept everything that's going on especially the fact that I might not be able to have kids because of the PCOS. I just wish I didn't have to struggle as much as everyone else. My life has been one big difficult game that I am close to being done with playing. But I must say I have a lot of support from my friends and family and especially my husband so I am just really lucky in that aspect but that doesn't make everything easier and usually it doesn't help unless your willing to utilize what you have and I must say I am a really independent person and don't like to rely on others which I guess makes my struggle harder which is my fault of course but anyway I think I have gone on enough just like is frustrating today but hopefully tomorrow may be better lets just hope so.
Hi again if this is your first time reading my blog welcome. I wanna talk about PTSD and who it can affect and what it is. So PTSD is Post Traumatic Stress Disorder it affects the brain and how it works because the trauma is so deep that it never goes away its something you relive the rest of your life. You can get night terrors from your trauma, it can make you suicidal, it makes your reaction different from "normal" peoples responses to everyday situations. I know for me that I get night terrors and flashbacks when I get triggered. Many things can trigger it like someone saying or doing something as well as smells and being in a place were the trauma took place. I know a lot of the time people think that only people who were in military get PTSD this is so wrong everyone and anyone can develop it from a trauma. I won't go into detail of my trauma but the people will get PTSD from sexual abuse, emotional abuse, and many other situations its something that causes scars on the brain. Its not fun to have because it can destroy your life depending on how bad your PTSD is because the severity of it can vary from person to person. But a lot of people don't talk about mental illnesses because in society its believed to be taboo to have a mental illness which if enough of us who suffer from any mental illness talked about it eventually others who are to scared to won't be so scared anymore and will feel its okay to talk about. That's why I wanna raise awareness not only for PTSD but every mental illness and tell people its okay to talk about. Its okay to express that you have this and that you can be like everyone else just your unique and you are stronger because you have to suffer daily and yet you keep going. We may think we are weak but we are strong we just need to find our voices. Because we are special in a great way. So talk about your mental health you might be surprise to find out who else does to.
So hi nice to see your reading my blog I am new to this so please be kind as I learn more about doing this the better I will become at doing this. But I am 23 years old and I am married to a awesome man. I have PTSD for those who don't know its Post Traumatic Stress Disorder a lot of people think that only people in the military suffer from PTSD but that is not true. I also would like people to know that it is a very silent painful disorder to have because you relive your trauma again and again. I am currently seeing a counselor to help me with my problems. So there is help out there. I have struggled with life and yea I mean actual life its a daily struggle for me and its quite painful a lot of the time. I keep myself quite sheltered because I am pretty much scared of the outside world. I know of people who are the same way but I am hoping that some day it will all change for me. Main reason for this blog is to meet people who suffer like I do who I can relate to and who can relate to me. I might even post some of my poems on here or give my link on facebook on here so those who want can check it out. I am pretty open so questions and comments are always welcome as long as they are not just down right rude. If your going to be rude please refrain from commenting because I want this to be a place for people to express themselves and I don't want mean comments being said back and forth between my readers. So please be polite. I don't know what else to say right now. I will try to post daily. Thanks for reading this first one and hope you enjoy. I will slowly make this blog better just give me time. Thanks again.
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