So today I want to post about my life and what I am going thru today. My husband is home and its been about a week since he had any time off from work and I just am feeling quite annoyed not because of him but because on Wednesday I had seen a doctor and was diagnosed with PCOS which is Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome its really terrible to have it can make you have a ton of problems and a few I have from it is high blood pressure as well as being obese and I also have facial hair which is super embarrassing so I usually take care of it with plucking or shaving it but its because I have more male hormone then normal for a women and I might have diabetes and I have to eat completely different now and its really frustrating to me cuz I hardly eat bad as is and now I have to change my diet that will cost even more money and right now I can't work cuz my PTSD makes it hard for me to leave the house alone. So everything is just making me really upset today and making it hard for me to keep going. The more problems I get the more I wonder the reason for my life. I don't believe in God so please refrain from mentioning him. I just am having a bad day I guess cuz its hard to accept everything that's going on especially the fact that I might not be able to have kids because of the PCOS. I just wish I didn't have to struggle as much as everyone else. My life has been one big difficult game that I am close to being done with playing. But I must say I have a lot of support from my friends and family and especially my husband so I am just really lucky in that aspect but that doesn't make everything easier and usually it doesn't help unless your willing to utilize what you have and I must say I am a really independent person and don't like to rely on others which I guess makes my struggle harder which is my fault of course but anyway I think I have gone on enough just like is frustrating today but hopefully tomorrow may be better lets just hope so.
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