Life really sucks! My mom is talking about moving again like she can't make her mind up. It also sticks we don't have a car to get around in for groceries. It's really actually quite annoying having to rely on someone for stuff like that. My husband works really hard and yet we can't seem to get ahead of things. I have given up on having babies we won't ever be able to afford it. I just wish that I didn't have anxiety and depression like I do so I could help out with the bills. I mainly wish that my mom would get some help for her deep seeded issues. I been going to counseling even though I hate it and don't feel it helps but I do it and she could do the same or at least find some outlet. I don't mean to seem mean or anything toward my mother but it's also I always been the one she had relied on for help along with my siblings so I feel like us moving isn't going to happen because I tried to go move to Tucson Arizona a few years ago and had to come back to help her out. So it's just more annoying then anything. I do love my mom I think she is amazing and strong but I also know is lonely and angry and bitter. I start to feel myself getting bitter and I been told I am quite cold and bitter because I don't like people hugging or touching me. Which in my opinion seems normal for someone who has been through as much as I or my mom or maybe even you have been through or someone you know has been through. I just hope some day soon she finds her happiness and is no longer bitter. I hope I can grow to not be bitter either but it might be quite hard. I also don't think it helps we have secrets like we do that probably weigh a ton on our shoulders. I just hope some day we can find our happy place. So here's to hoping our happy place is discovered soon!
0 Comments
Leave a Reply. |
Archives
June 2018
CategoriesAuthorI am Bridget I have PTSD and was recently diagnosed |