I have had my blog for a year today! Which is really cool! I went for my med appointment today and they think I may have bipolar type 2 the more depressed one. I was given an antidepressant and anxiety pills so if the antidepressant doesn't work I have to take mood stabilizers which would mean I am bipolar which I have been told I had before but each person likes to diagnose you with different stuff. I have 2 sisters who have bipolar disorder and I have to say I am hoping I don't even though it will make it easier to get my social security I hope I don't have it because it can pass to children and I might decide to not have a children because that's my biggest fear is passing on my mental health issues. I wouldn't change who I am because I am who I am because of what I have been through which has made me have mental health issues but I still wouldn't change it but I also wouldn't want my children to have it. So that's a big thing to think of and so is if I get pregnant I would have to know early enough to stop it to prevent birth defects. I don't know what to do. I really want to be a parent but I have so much other stuff I am confused about and only thing I am sure about is I want to be a parent and about my husband. I want to cry because I feel so overwhelmed about everything. I wish I hadn't gone to go get meds. I feel like my whole life is a lie because I am confused about my gender and everything else. I just don't know what to do anymore! Anyway blogs been up a year thanks to all who are regular and came to check it out or come to check it out you make it worth me writing! Hope you all have a great day!
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