I just noticed what I wrote yesterday didn't post which is just awesome. This has happened before and it's so annoying. So I lost all of what I wrote isn't that awesome. I can't even remember what I wrote yesterday but it was from my computer so apparently my phone app saves it so I don't have that issue. I can't delete it till I get on my computer again sorry for that. I am in a bad way. I am feeling super bad about things in my past and I don't want to be me anymore. I also have realized I am no better then my siblings and I don't know why I thought I was so different when I am not. I really don't know how much more of this life I want to try to live through especially when I am feeling this way constantly. My mom seems miserable and I feel unconnected from those I love. I feel alone and scared with no where to run. I can't believe I feel so trapped and in such a bad way. I know we all make mistakes in life but right now mine feel like I can never get past them. I should have done so much different and not let so many people do whatever they wanted to me and think it was fine. I don't even know who to talk to so I can get it off my chest and off my mind. I just can't keep this ugly cycle going of feeling this way. There has to be a way to stop it. I can't really write I have to help my mom. Hope you all have a good day and remember your beautiful inside and out don't let anyone tell you no different. Also don't let someone try to make you feel like you don't shine because you do even if you don't see it.
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June 2018
CategoriesAuthorI am Bridget I have PTSD and was recently diagnosed |