So I thought I should come check in and write a little bit about what's going on with me. Well I went to see my counselor on Monday and it didn't go to great I am thinking of switching since she doesn't seem to be helping me. But I am starting to wonder if I don't want the help and am just wait for my life and to just end. I been self harming again too and I just feel extremely depressed and can't seem to kick this feeling. It's like every time you get depressed again it feels like you have never been so depressed before but you really have and you just don't remember it being so bad even though at the time it felt like the deepest of the deep. Well I don't understand how I can't recall it I don't know if anyone is else has this issue but it's weird it's almost like experiencing the extremist depression for the first time every time. I do have times where I have just a little depression and can fight thru and it isn't like I am in such a deep hole that I can't get out of but this depression is like that. It's like your running out of air in this hole and if you put your hands in the wrong place the sorry on the side will come down on top of you and no one will miss you even though that's not true it will subside and you will be back to I don't even know what I am when I am not depressed like this I guess I am either the slightly depressed or I do have some happy days but they aren't like full on happy it's hard to explain. Okay will I can't think of what to write I think I am going to go for now hope you all have a wonderful day and maybe relate to what I am going through always feel free to comment if you would like. Thanks.
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CategoriesAuthorI am Bridget I have PTSD and was recently diagnosed |