I been feeling so nervous all day today because I go back into counseling tomorrow with a new counselor at a new place so it feels really overwhelming to me. But I am sure everyone gets this way about meeting someone new especially since it's a 2 hour appointment. But on a positive note I had a good day with my mom. I dressed up really nice and felt amazing and got told I looked like a anime character which was really nice. But now being home after dinner and doing a load of laundry I am feeling sick and exhausted and just am so unsure about everything. Money makes things even more stressful. My husband and I mainly just argue about money anymore it makes it hard to be in the same room without me usually bringing it up. I don't work so it makes me feel so lazy and it makes me wish that my mental health issues would disappear and I could do what everyone else does it often makes me think that I lean on my mental health issues as a way to get out of things but then again I know it's not. I have so much mixed emotions during one day that it is truly exhausting but when night comes and it's time for bed I can not sleep I become completely awake when I hit the bed and usually paranoid. I don't know if I have mentioned this or not but I am really interested in doing photography and after hearing it has helped others with mental health issues similarly to me it really even more peaks my interest. Has anyone else tried something like photography or something similar and found it helped them with symptoms of their mental health issues let me know in the comments! Thanks for those who read this means a lot don't know what else to say at the moment might write after my appointment tomorrow.
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June 2018
CategoriesAuthorI am Bridget I have PTSD and was recently diagnosed |