Hi readers I just want to come and say thanks to those who follow my blog! Remember you can always comment on here! I wanted to write about what's going on with me so I been being a lot more active and eating better to try and lose weight mainly and most of all to get healthy! I have noticed a couple of different things mentally from doing this. I have notice my depression isn't as bad as it was when I was eating a lot of bad stuff and not being active so that's one positive thing but I have also noticed that when I sleep I seem to have more nightmares which I am really not liking to much. I am not sure why this is happening because I really didn't have a nightmares to often before but now I am. Has anyone else experienced this before where you change something and you start to have a increase in nightmares? I know when I was a kid I had a ton of nightmares and night terrors but now I get them only sometimes but recently I have had a increase in them. Last night I had a really bad one and woke up not being sure if it was reality or not. I also am still trying to figure out what's going to make me comfortable with my gender. I feel like doing anything drastic might make those I love push away especially my husband which my nightmare last night was about him so I don't know if maybe I have to much on my mind all the time and that's what is causing me to have nightmares which is probably what it is but I really am not sure. One thing I do know is for sure the being active has made me feel a little better and I know it's so hard to get active when you are so depressed but when you have a bright day take advantage of it because sometimes you can keep yourself from going back to such a dark place again. I know it's hard and I know how much of a struggle it is but it is worth it to even have a few days of feeling good or at least okay because everyone deserves to have days when they feel like they can seize the day and tackle anything which is why I been trying to keep myself active and I will say that I still get depressed so it's not a complete forever fix but I do feel better which is what counts in my mind. I use to say oh everyone thinks being active will change stuff yea right but you don't realize it till you start doing it and you have to keep at it not just do it one day then not the next day and I am just talking about going for a walk or just going outside for a little while something small can make a huge impact on your mood and mental health. I hope this will help someone out there because I have been that person who always thought because I was overweight everyone wanted me to be active so I could lose weight not improve my mental health and mood but it has and I am happy I gave it a chance and had it improve stuff for me. One last thing before I go I am feeling extra confused about my gender because I feel like would be happy being the other gender but am scared if I do it that it will be the wrong decision and I have will regret it or that I will be more uncomfortable. I need to get some guys clothes and see how it makes feel first I suppose! Thanks for reading.
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